Still Kicking...

Hello...

...it's been awhile...

it's been too much of "awhile" if you ask me...

Where to begin?
                                       What to say?

David turned 9 months on the 17th... with every month my heart aches just a little more... knowing that that first year is getting closer.  I'm happy for it to come and yet so sad to see it approaching.  I'm not ready for him to be a year old.  I have mini anxiety attacks just thinking about it.  I know it's silly to think after he hits 1 year he won't be my baby any more... that he won't need "mommy" because he will still want mommy and still want to cuddle... but I'm so afraid of losing my cuddle bear.  I need to shake this off though... its just silly thinking.

We had our walk through today.  My husband went with out me... I sadly had to stay home because of an illness that has kept me down and out for almost a week.  I haven't had a temperature like that since I was a little kid.  101.8 was the highest it got... I couldn't believe it.  I never get a fever... NEVER... so I was just shocked... and horrified with how I felt.  I'm just glad my son seems to be doing fine and not getting whatever it was I had.  I'm finally getting back to myself after 5 days and 7 pounds gone... at least it was one way of losing pregnancy weight. HA.

So about the house.  We close on Friday... I can't wait to have all this done so we can really start making it our own.  I feel like I'm hovering... or floating in an in between place waiting for this to go to the next step.  I hate waiting... I'm a now kind of person... when I get an urge to do something... paint, sing, play an instrument, cook, clean, laugh... I just do it right there and then... and if I can't... I go a little crazy inside waiting.. I hate waiting...

life lesson I guess.... patience.... I don't know if I'll ever really learn patience... at least, not the kind I need for such things steps in life...  I have patience for my son... I have patience for the arts... but life... when something exciting is building up... I want that climax to happen... that moment where your heart is ready to burst with pure joy and happiness... where everything falls into place and you know its all good.  And I wish for it to ALWAYS stay GOOD!

 ... wishful thinking I know, but I like to be that way.

(Patience... Patience Krista... come Friday... your little family has a place to call your own.... your home.)

Monster under the bed...

Recently I've been gating David in his room to play, since he's been on the move this last week and getting better and better at it every day.  His room is just the safest place for him, and he enjoys it.  Well... I hear some squawking... then its silent... and all the mommy alarms go off like, "What did he get into??" So I walk down the hallway quietly, so he doesn't hear me coming... I peek around the corner and eye the room.  No baby... hmm...


I hear some more coo's and gaa's, so I step over the gate, get down on all fours and go, "where's David?  Where could he be?"  and flip the dust ruffle on the crib up, and there he was, hands and knees, rocking back and forth with the biggest proudest smile a baby could have.  My heart melted.  He was SO excited I found him.


So after getting a little video of him under there (which I will put up as soon as I get it off the camera) I started to pull him out.  Cried the entire time.  He calmed down and went back to playing with his toys.


A little later Jeffry got home and went in to say hi to him.  He called me to come look... again, no baby... but daddy found him under his crib again talking away... smiling his big proud smile.  He was having such a blast. :)  I got some more video and pictures... but both Jeff and decided that David MUST be the monster under the bed.  So no fear to any children out there... he's gentle as a lamb and very friendly. :)

Something fresh...

Nothing like waking up on a Monday morning in your own bed after being away for the weekend, with a new fresh hair cut (nice and short), and a nice fresh hot cup of coffee.  This Monday would be perfect if my little man was in a good mood, but alas, weekend trips always throw him off his schedule... and this... this takes me two weeks MAX to get him back into his normal routines and schedules... and those two weeks for mommy means lack of sleep and shot nerves.

At least I have my blog... my comfy little corner to melt away into while he lays in the other room screaming away... that scream you can't seem to calm... that scream that breaks your mommy heart.  He was obviously over tired (since he was up in the middle of the night screaming), but I tried to rock him, nurse him... let him sit with me in the family room... nothing was calming him down, being with me seemed to make it worse, so I just laid him down and went back into the family room and just sat here tense, fighting ever instinct to go back in there.  Sometimes we just have to accept that there's nothing you can do to help, and just let them work it out, no matter how much you hate it.

Over the weekend, David finally crawled forward!  I missed it. :(  George and I were out getting our hair done.  While I was waiting for George's cut to be done, Jeffry called me to tell me that he crawled to him and Grandpa Jeff.  At least he did it with one of us... Daddy will have that special memory to share with him when he's older. :)  I told him to get a video of him doing it.  He was stubborn after that.  They only got a little video of him.

In other news, we should be closing on May 28th now instead of June 1st.  We are SO excited.  First thing we're going to try to do is finish the basement so we can have the guest room done for family visits.  David's first birthday is creeping up on us here in a few months, and we'll need a place for Jeff's parents to stay. We're also having fun looking at how we're going to decorate.

Oh! Last night we had dinner at my brother and sister in law's house with the family, and towards the end of dinner, my brother said it was funny but nice that everyone was there because it was a year ago (yesterday) that they had found out Erika was pregnant with dear sweet little Frederick (rip sweet little angel), and they had just found out she is expecting again.  I had my mouth full of food when he said that... if I hadn't had food in my mouth I would of screamed!!!  I'm so excited for them I could dance on the moon!  I'm getting a twin vibe from her, so we'll see... if not twins, I think it'll be a boy.  SO excited.

(Erika, I love you so much sis, and I'm here all the way through!  and you know I'll be there to take pictures. :) Jeff can watch David so I can be there. :)  Oooo now I really can't wait till January... which is something I don't usually say cause I don't usually care for that month... haha tooo COLD!)

So I better get to knitting!!!  Gotta prepare for my little niece or nephew(s?) ;)  So excited. :)  Have I said I was excited????

Well, that was the best news I could hear!  And on that note I better go check on my crabby little boy... hope you all had a good weekend, and a great Monday!

Home is where...

Home is where the frogs sing, and the birds chirp, and my son can run and play....

Oh I'm on a little happy high right now.

We signed today... our closing date is June 1st.

We are SO excited.

I don't even know what to say!  I'm speechless.... so excited.

Our future home...

well... kinda... ours isn't built yet. hehe. :)  But this is what it will look like.

We're going to start going through our storage unit and getting rid of stuff.  I have to get the ball rolling on the yard sale... which I've never done one and I'm kind of at a loss on how to get this started... heh.

But yeah... the next couple months are going to be busy ones...

Talk about a birthday gift to my hubby bub... "HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY! BOUGHT YOU A HOUSE!" haha... XD

House hunting...

This last Saturday my husband and I headed abuot 40-45 mins. NW from where we live now to look at some homes... we've been searching for a long time now, and it has taken a toll on me.  I was feeling a little put off by the idea of looking again since I had been let down so hard on the last few houses we had put offers on and not gotten.

For our price range, we can't really get anything that we want or need here in the cities, so we decided it was worth the drive to get something we can be in for a long time.  So little high way town, here we come!

We got there and the first house was wonderful.  Lived in, but pretty decent.  It came with all the appliances and the carpet was in good condition, 3 car garage... but I just wasn't sure.  We looked at 5 more houses, 2 of which were crossed off the list VERY quickly.  The second to the last house was REALLY nice... but the carpet would need replacing, and there weren't any appliances... and then there was the fact it was a forclosure owned by fannie mae which screwed us over on the first house we had almost got... through the inspection and them changing the paper work on us 3 times, we finally just said nevermind.

Well... then came the last house... which was still being built... so we looked at a model of it... I was in love... specially with the idea of a fresh start to keeping things clean for the baby.  After looking at the model, we went to look at the lot the one we would get is being built on.  The frame was done, so we took a look around and it was just dream like for me.  I could hear frogs singing on the other side of a line of trees in the backyard.  I felt at home. :)

Needless to say, by the end of the night after much talking between Jeff and I, we decided this was the way to go for us.  The best part is it will cost us less than the one we almost got in the end, since we don't have to put in new carpet or buy appliances.  So we're pretty excited.  We go tomorrow to meet with the builder and get the paper work in order. :)

I'll be a little lonely when we move, since I've grown so used to seeing my mom every morning, talking over coffee, and our evening knitting time together... but Jeff, David and I need this... our own family unit seperate from my childhood family unit.  I will miss my parents, but I welcome the space and freedom for Jeff and I to build our own family traditions and memories.

Well, David just went down for a nap, and I have a shawl just calling to me to work on, so I'm going to go knit for a bit till mom is ready for a break from work, then we'll pack up and head out to the mall for a little "get out of the house" time.

Hope you all had a great weekend and are having a good Monday.
love

Little Camo Boy

The sun finally came out to say hello yesterday afternoon so Jeff and I thought it would be nice to go for a walk.  Best thing about the sun, a fun little sun hat!  I just got it in the mail yesterday, and I was all sorts of excited. :)  Its a "Grandpa" hat.

Can you believe he'll be 8 months old on Saturday??? I can't... heh

Well, I just wanted to share the pictures. :)  I'll try to update with something more full bodied later. :)
Happy Friday!!!

Steam hurts

So last night I decided to make Chicken Alfredo for dinner with salad and garlic bread.  I was pretty flustered while making it... and usually I have back up help... but I guess I was being stubborn and wanted to do it all myself.  Well... as I was getting the salad ready, I realized the bread needed to be taken out of the oven... THEN realized the chicken needed to be flipped... and as I took the cover off the pan... I was attacked by the steam monster...

Needless to say... I went to bed with a wrapped wrist... just so nothing would rub against the burn... I know air is good for burns, but things touching it hurts worse than anything right now...so I'm just fine with covering it.

Annny way, today is another rainy day... good for the plants, bad for my mood... I get really blah when its rainy... but what can ya do?  David is playing on his floor mat looking cute as ever in his little skull and cross bone leggings, with his fighter pilot onesie, and grey hoodie.  I love his style ;)

Today doesn't look like a very productive day... I'll probably clean when Jeff gets home... that way he can watch David while I do so.

If any one has sun today, soak some in for me. <3