Even talking about it puts a knot in my stomach.
I'm not ready for this but there's no way to stop it. He's going to turn one whether I like it or not. I think I'm grieving his infancy. The last year has meant so much to me, and I know I'm going to enjoy the next year too, but there's just something about this first year of being a mom... having my little man... so tiny in my arms... I'm so going to miss these moments.
I think the grieving is making me crazy and wanting another baby now... I need to hold myself back from this because I don't think I could handle a newborn and a toddler at the same time. But if it were to happen I would take the challenge. Though I doubt it would happen. Jeffry has made it clear that he doesn't want another one for a little while. So I will just baby my new little niece or nephew that is on the way, due in January. That should help I think.
I think the grieving is making me crazy and wanting another baby now... I need to hold myself back from this because I don't think I could handle a newborn and a toddler at the same time. But if it were to happen I would take the challenge. Though I doubt it would happen. Jeffry has made it clear that he doesn't want another one for a little while. So I will just baby my new little niece or nephew that is on the way, due in January. That should help I think.
How have you mom's out there dealt with the change from infant to toddler? Cause it is breaking my heart right now and I can't seem to really make myself feel better.
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