Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Still Kicking...

Hello...

...it's been awhile...

it's been too much of "awhile" if you ask me...

Where to begin?
                                       What to say?

David turned 9 months on the 17th... with every month my heart aches just a little more... knowing that that first year is getting closer.  I'm happy for it to come and yet so sad to see it approaching.  I'm not ready for him to be a year old.  I have mini anxiety attacks just thinking about it.  I know it's silly to think after he hits 1 year he won't be my baby any more... that he won't need "mommy" because he will still want mommy and still want to cuddle... but I'm so afraid of losing my cuddle bear.  I need to shake this off though... its just silly thinking.

We had our walk through today.  My husband went with out me... I sadly had to stay home because of an illness that has kept me down and out for almost a week.  I haven't had a temperature like that since I was a little kid.  101.8 was the highest it got... I couldn't believe it.  I never get a fever... NEVER... so I was just shocked... and horrified with how I felt.  I'm just glad my son seems to be doing fine and not getting whatever it was I had.  I'm finally getting back to myself after 5 days and 7 pounds gone... at least it was one way of losing pregnancy weight. HA.

So about the house.  We close on Friday... I can't wait to have all this done so we can really start making it our own.  I feel like I'm hovering... or floating in an in between place waiting for this to go to the next step.  I hate waiting... I'm a now kind of person... when I get an urge to do something... paint, sing, play an instrument, cook, clean, laugh... I just do it right there and then... and if I can't... I go a little crazy inside waiting.. I hate waiting...

life lesson I guess.... patience.... I don't know if I'll ever really learn patience... at least, not the kind I need for such things steps in life...  I have patience for my son... I have patience for the arts... but life... when something exciting is building up... I want that climax to happen... that moment where your heart is ready to burst with pure joy and happiness... where everything falls into place and you know its all good.  And I wish for it to ALWAYS stay GOOD!

 ... wishful thinking I know, but I like to be that way.

(Patience... Patience Krista... come Friday... your little family has a place to call your own.... your home.)

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Monster under the bed...

Recently I've been gating David in his room to play, since he's been on the move this last week and getting better and better at it every day.  His room is just the safest place for him, and he enjoys it.  Well... I hear some squawking... then its silent... and all the mommy alarms go off like, "What did he get into??" So I walk down the hallway quietly, so he doesn't hear me coming... I peek around the corner and eye the room.  No baby... hmm...


I hear some more coo's and gaa's, so I step over the gate, get down on all fours and go, "where's David?  Where could he be?"  and flip the dust ruffle on the crib up, and there he was, hands and knees, rocking back and forth with the biggest proudest smile a baby could have.  My heart melted.  He was SO excited I found him.


So after getting a little video of him under there (which I will put up as soon as I get it off the camera) I started to pull him out.  Cried the entire time.  He calmed down and went back to playing with his toys.


A little later Jeffry got home and went in to say hi to him.  He called me to come look... again, no baby... but daddy found him under his crib again talking away... smiling his big proud smile.  He was having such a blast. :)  I got some more video and pictures... but both Jeff and decided that David MUST be the monster under the bed.  So no fear to any children out there... he's gentle as a lamb and very friendly. :)

Monday, May 3, 2010

Something fresh...

Nothing like waking up on a Monday morning in your own bed after being away for the weekend, with a new fresh hair cut (nice and short), and a nice fresh hot cup of coffee.  This Monday would be perfect if my little man was in a good mood, but alas, weekend trips always throw him off his schedule... and this... this takes me two weeks MAX to get him back into his normal routines and schedules... and those two weeks for mommy means lack of sleep and shot nerves.

At least I have my blog... my comfy little corner to melt away into while he lays in the other room screaming away... that scream you can't seem to calm... that scream that breaks your mommy heart.  He was obviously over tired (since he was up in the middle of the night screaming), but I tried to rock him, nurse him... let him sit with me in the family room... nothing was calming him down, being with me seemed to make it worse, so I just laid him down and went back into the family room and just sat here tense, fighting ever instinct to go back in there.  Sometimes we just have to accept that there's nothing you can do to help, and just let them work it out, no matter how much you hate it.

Over the weekend, David finally crawled forward!  I missed it. :(  George and I were out getting our hair done.  While I was waiting for George's cut to be done, Jeffry called me to tell me that he crawled to him and Grandpa Jeff.  At least he did it with one of us... Daddy will have that special memory to share with him when he's older. :)  I told him to get a video of him doing it.  He was stubborn after that.  They only got a little video of him.

In other news, we should be closing on May 28th now instead of June 1st.  We are SO excited.  First thing we're going to try to do is finish the basement so we can have the guest room done for family visits.  David's first birthday is creeping up on us here in a few months, and we'll need a place for Jeff's parents to stay. We're also having fun looking at how we're going to decorate.

Oh! Last night we had dinner at my brother and sister in law's house with the family, and towards the end of dinner, my brother said it was funny but nice that everyone was there because it was a year ago (yesterday) that they had found out Erika was pregnant with dear sweet little Frederick (rip sweet little angel), and they had just found out she is expecting again.  I had my mouth full of food when he said that... if I hadn't had food in my mouth I would of screamed!!!  I'm so excited for them I could dance on the moon!  I'm getting a twin vibe from her, so we'll see... if not twins, I think it'll be a boy.  SO excited.

(Erika, I love you so much sis, and I'm here all the way through!  and you know I'll be there to take pictures. :) Jeff can watch David so I can be there. :)  Oooo now I really can't wait till January... which is something I don't usually say cause I don't usually care for that month... haha tooo COLD!)

So I better get to knitting!!!  Gotta prepare for my little niece or nephew(s?) ;)  So excited. :)  Have I said I was excited????

Well, that was the best news I could hear!  And on that note I better go check on my crabby little boy... hope you all had a good weekend, and a great Monday!